| what a day |
[Sep. 13th, 2008|01:30 pm] |
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well I happen to be going to a boxing match with my ex jason.. Mainly because what is going to happen is this is for a guy I work with and the person that I have a friendship with who happens to be married will be there and probably with his wife as well.. So there maybe a confrontation,but nothing I can't handle.... So we will see where this is going to go! |
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| damn |
[Sep. 9th, 2008|05:14 pm] |
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well life is getting a little rocky again,but I think I will live I always do.... |
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| song |
[Jun. 2nd, 2008|01:43 am] |
Hello don't you know me
I'm the dirt beneath your feet
The most important fool you forgot to see
I've seen how you give it
Now i want to receive
I know that you would do the same for me
I know i'm headed for the bottom
But i'm riding you all the way
For all of your kisses turned to spit in my face
For all that reminds me which is my place
For all of the times when you made me disappear
This time i'm sure you will know that i'm here
I know i'm headed for the bottom
But i'm riding you all the way
My place was beneath you but now i'm above
And now i send you a message of love
A simple reminder of what you won't see
A future so holy without me
I know i'm headed for the bottom
But i'm riding you all the way
soundgarden-mailman |
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| world of warcraft |
[Feb. 8th, 2008|06:35 pm] |
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So yea I totally went out and bought world of warcraft and I was surpised to find that I actually really like it... I thought it was going to be more of a roleplaying game, but it actually rocks... So yea me and stu have pretty much been playing whenever we both get the chance to play... So I am looking for more people to play with me and if you are interested in playing with me... My aim name is bogusillusions and I will tell you my realm or see if we can compromise with realms and just play with one another ;) |
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[Oct. 16th, 2007|02:51 am] |
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I feel sick so sick I can't sleep..... I'm used and broken... He fell out of love with me... How can you just fall out of love with someone? I gave him everything I had to give |
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| men suck |
[Oct. 15th, 2007|09:18 pm] |
well jason is an asshole marriage is only making raping your wife legal! And everything is bullshit...
Me and jason broke up for a stupid reason.... we are no longer getting married and I might be with child! and he told me to figure it out on my own! Only reason I am posting is because I know no one reads this stupid thing anymore and I don't want to put it on myspace, because it's bullshit and everyone who is anyone reads everything on there..... If there is a god he hates me! I feel broken and used.... Like my heart has been slashed open and salt dumped in it.... I am hurt and alone now... and for some reason I still miss the asshole |
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| bad sushi |
[Jun. 3rd, 2007|11:29 am] |
well from my title I think I ate some bad sushi and had food poisoning... it was fun not being able to eat for about 3 days.. I lost like 10 pounds... I should get sick more often... Umm well any drama um not really me and jason had dominic for about a week and we fun with him..... there are some more things to be conserned about with him, but I have learned my lesson from saying things and will leave it at that..... I'm still working like a hooker on baltimore street.... which is a lot... Umm me and jason are planning on going back to west virginia for our birthdays which should be fun.... He is trying to push up the date for when we get married he is very excited and for some reason loves me very much..... He is thinking about joining the waterfront now which I think is great and I am happy for him.. We are now ... gotta go
shannon |
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| north carolina |
[May. 12th, 2007|08:53 pm] |
well as from my title I am in north carolina at the moment.. It was odd this happened friday morning... I get a call from jason and he asks me what time are you getting off and I tell him about 3 and than he tells me we needed to go to north carolina for his aunt's funeral... I don't know if anyone on here has myspace or not, but I had mentioned that his aunt had bone cancer and wasn't doing so hot... Well she passed away thursday night and was buried down here... It was a very very long drive... But somehow me,the purple nurple and jason had made it... I was surrounded by people I didn't know most of the time and me and jason have only been to lousy buffet place since being here... His family loves buffets :-/ I wanted to go to a steakhouse and maybe get some sushi or something a little more healthy.... I would love some seaweed salad right now.... Well we are leaving tomorrow morning at some point and probably watch a movie tonight and that is about it....
What else ... I have joined the dark side of facebook.com... Only thing is I haven't really been in the mood to set anything up... :-/ I don't think there is much esle to say.. I'm alive to the people who care....
shannon |
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| knock the dust off |
[May. 3rd, 2007|04:00 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | disturbed-numb | ] |
well I have resently had some trouble with a little site called myspace which is so much bullshit it's not funny... I have been dating a boy named jason and well just for the hell of it his little exes decided to start spying on me and use whatever I said aganist me.... It's complete and utter bullshit.. Only reason I started myspace was so I could talk to people from highschool and than I decided that if they aren't still my friends they don't need to talk to me through a stupid website..... All I needed was a way for myself to vent all my rage and anger.... Well shows what I get when I decide to blog... So now it's make to old livejournal... With a little less drama I hope....
Me and my finacee :-/ are taking a break.. He is too much of a clingy depedent for me.. He wants me around all the time and I decided that I need some time off from him for a while...ONly a few days until we decide what we want to do...weather it's stay together or grow apart... That's life... What other drama???? I'm working.. that's it for today...
love shannon |
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| knock the dust off |
[Nov. 5th, 2006|08:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Willy wonka and the chocolate factory | ] |
well umm haven't been can't remember what I last wrote... so I broke up with shane... If you don't know who shane is I broke up with him about a week ago and we were together for about a year... I'm already back up on the pogo stick with someone name jason... He has a sweet little boy and we will see where things go so far... He seems like a homebody like me... so it might work out... We shall see.... I'm a crane operator now and I'm working with a new company called MTC and I'm still living in my apartment.... So it should be fun... Yea I think that is about it
shannon |
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| it's 4 am do you know where your good night sleep? |
[May. 6th, 2006|03:43 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mm-fundemantlly loathsome | ] |
well I think me and shane have called it quits I don't know yet.... He's been acting really weird for a while.... I don't know why... I think since the situation with the cat at his grandparents I think he has been looking for an excuse to break up...(we were at his grandmothers playing cards and a cat stratched the shit out of him and he threw the cat across the room than was talking about breaking up,because of his anger)
Well I'll get to it... Yasterday I had made plans to go out with my friends to dinner on friday(earlier tonight)and I called shane, because I wanted him to came and I asked him he said no and than made the comment about going down to his boat... I usually don't go because it's only watching movies and that's it... So I wrote him a txt saying I missed him and never got anything back... Since he was at his boat I stayed til about 1am and than said "Ok time for bed" I locked my doors(because I don't want random people walking in and out of my apartment.Downstair usually has people over)and than I shut my bedroom door, which I tend I lock, because it's a force of habit... well about 6:40 this morning shane comes into my apartment and makes himself his lunch(diet) and than just leaves... At this point I am pissed he didn't say goodbye or give me a kiss or anything.... Just left... Will I get up thinking he will probably call me later that day or whichever... I don't get nothing from him... So slowly my temper is rising.... I've been a good girlfriend to him haven't cheated on him... Cook for him and pretty much do whatever he wants... Well I waited around tonight until about 11:50 and than went to bed... He came here about 12:30... And woke me up and said something about a game I was playing... and I asked him what he meant by it... He made the comment I locked him out the apartment(he has keys!) and my twist lock door knob to my bedroom was locked... and than I didn't talk to him all day... I told I text messaged you that I missed you and he said he sent one back that I never got... So I just left it at that... He was trying to say I was pissed at him not going out and I'll admit I was a little steamed, because when he wants to go out with his friends and drag me along I do and I have to put up with his cat obsessed family! So I just said I wasn't pissed and it wasn't something I was going to start a fight over... well he starts going on about how I did this to him and that... I told him I wasn't in the mood to argue and than he starts to keep yelling at me and said something about leaving and I told him to go ahead... I didn't feel like arguing... and I laid back down... He slam the bedroom door and than processed to get all of his things out of my apartment left keys... And went....
I can't sleep..
I'm not going to be forced to feel bad everytime I go out with my friends or whenever he is insults, which he does a lot around his family or when he goes on about other women..
No it's all a game to me and he insulted me by saying he hasn't played a game like this since highschool and tried to tell him I wasn't playing a game and he didn't believe me.. So what can I do...
NOTHING
I don't remember ever playing games with people,because I'm not that type of person and I will not be insulted... He always tries to talk down to me like a child... And I have been through so much shit in my life it isn't funny... I have always considered myself a smart mature person.... And every chance he gets he takes a blow and makes me feel worse about myself which I don't need... I told him when we got together that I didn't need to be with someone... I felt secure enough and happy enough to be on my own... If I can't enjoy my own company than who esle will?
and it's not like I really have a issue with getting together with people.... Yes it true I didn't have sex for 3 years, but I was dating in between and doing whichever came to mind.... Plus the affair with mr.x(no sex invovled) and than I dated other guys.... So it's not like I had a issue with getting together with guys.... I chose to be with shane and now he is making me regret it... I think I'm done... I'm going to see if I can get some sleep somehow... I don't see it coming easy...
shannon
shoot myself to love you
if I loved myself I would shoot you |
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| Drugs and depends |
[Mar. 3rd, 2006|07:52 pm] |
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| | she wants revenge-untitled | ] |
Umm I'm sick I'm trying to od on nyquil so my nose is sore... I tried not go outdoor and tried to listen to shane but teo made that impossible by not covering me today at work.... That son of a bitch... He owes me 4 hours and he acts like an asshole when I actually really need them:-/ He better hope he doesn't need a favor anytime soon from me!
I went to walmart got some drugs and depends.... :-p Shane came over for a while and watched brie of chucky with me and than went to his class... which was sweet of him considering that I was sick :-D
ok that should be about it.... Bye
shannon |
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| *knocks the dust off* |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|04:20 pm] |
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| | She wants revenge-tear you apart | ] |
Yes people I am alive.... Not that anyone was too worried about me I suppose :-/ I am very happy in this point of life... I have a great awesome apartment which most people tell is a great looking place :-D My truck is still not fixed... *can't remember if told story* some kid ran into me on 695 fucking up my bed real bad.... I'm doing great at work...
I'm still with Shane which is actually a surpise... He gets second longest realationship so far award.... And I think we're probably going to be together for quite a bit longer... I have a telephone at my apt if anyone cares to call it's (410)388-0626 no long distance number and no weirdos... If I don't answer leave a message... Umm trying to think of anything interesting lately... Oh Julie has a new room mate her name is Dawn and she's an interesting person... Probably not someone I would let live with me, but than again I hate everybody so yea... ;-D
I was planning on having a dinner party for all my friends this weeken but I think I'm going to set it for next week instead so I can work friday night and saturday if I can.....
I have made a better friend though... Teo a guy I work with him and I have become better friends... I think we go out to breakfast almost everyday.. We talk about a lot of stuff.. I'm in the process of trying to get shane on a diet since he wants to lose weight and he has been tlaking with me about... So it's pretty cool...
Floyde a boy I work with tried to ask me out the other day... It was kind of cute, and yet shattering to him when I told him I am taken... If he would of asked 4 months ago there might have been a chance...
I think I'm going to try and see wha danie is doing tonight and maybe hang out with her since shane is probably going to be working...
Have fun all
Shannon
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed aganist me tight
As I whisper in your ear...
I fucking want to tear you apart |
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| The new life of shannon |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|09:13 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Joydrop-beautiful | ] |
Well instead of misery and doom like my life tends to be for some reason or another.. Life is great :-D
I'm in my new apartment which is spiffariffic I'll have to get pics of and put them on myspace and show everyone who is interested in seeing them... Still with shane we have past the 2 month mark which is wonderful, because I usually go past the one month mark..:-D I moved up on the barge at work which means I get so much paid time off it's not funny :-D Only down fall at the moment I don't have a phone at my aparment yet or internet... We'll see I suppose.. I just feel great...
There was one really sad thing that did happen Joe L my gang carrier died sunday jan 29th... His liver failed as well as his kidneys.... The only thing i really get upset about is the fact Graves will be happy about this... :-/ He is in jail now, because he was going to try to hit me and hit mike sansone instead... He also has a warrent....
Ok good mood gone now.... DAMN IT...
I'll have pics up soon... And will probably have pics of me and Shane in the near future...
Shannon |
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| Monster squad |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|12:52 pm] |
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| | shane text msg me | ] |
http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/monstersquad
Come guys.... Don't be chickenshit!
Who doesn't want monstersquad to come out on dvd....
- In 1982 Time Magazine named Gooby its 'Man of the Year'.
- Goobyicide is the killing of Gooby.
- Two grams of Gooby provide enough energy to power a television for over twenty-three hours.
- Plato believed that the souls of melancholy people would be reincarnated into Gooby.
- Gooby has a bifurcated penis!
- Over half of Americans are officially Gooby.
- The first domain name ever registered was Gooby.com.
- When provoked, Gooby will swivel the tip of her abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at her attacker.
- According to the story, Pinocchio was made of Gooby.
- It took Gooby 22 years to build the Taj Mahal.
This was interesting...
Umm painting to apartment... Having my carpets cleaned on monday ;) than I should be in by monday night or tuesday... WOOOOOHOOOO DA SHANNON MOVING OUT.....DA SHANNON'S MOVING OUT |
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| Today seems like a good day |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|04:16 pm] |
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| |  mellow | ] |
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| | groove armada-at the river | ] |
Well today I went to the hall to try and get a job like usual.... Shane and Me got to talking and neither one of us got jobs so instead we went out to breakfast and went to his boat watched joe Dirt and fell asleep... We went back to the hall about 12:15 where Orville noticed us walking in together and of course made a comment about us... We ignored it.. I figured he was trying to be cute.... Later on around 2:30 I suppose Shane called me telling me his already ripped pants ripped the rest of the way, but luckily he had Kenny Beckman as foreman which is someone we know.. He let him go home and change his pants and than for some odd reason he decided to call me and tell me of his luck...
I feel like we are an old couple... We don't have to worry about certain things it's kind of nice :-D Very different and nice... He doesn't always try to get into my pants or make out everytime we get around one another... He just likes to be around me in general... Ok :-D I'm done begging about shane now...
My truck now I have to take it to carney to maif to get it estimated on tuesday at 1:30pm where I have orders on tuesday... Hopefully I won't be longer than half a day if not than I'll have to check up or asked to be kept in which I really don't see that happen... I'm the only girl in that gang for some reason most of the guys get along with me expect for Graves and Sansone... I think Mike (sansone) thinks me being girl holds the gang back... So he constantly going over my head... I said something about trying to go over with tartan, but he just brushed it off like my opinion really doesn't matter... We would be making at least 40hrs a week instead of our usually 10-20:-/ he doesn't make much sense... Anyhow I'm done now...
Shannon |
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| To all and none |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|09:16 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Garabge- you look so fine | ] |
well umm today was ok I guess... I worked that;s about it....
Shane and I went out last night with my parents for lori birthday last night.. For some reason I just felt embrassed... I don't know why... My neices were carring on... Specially Sarah who kept making comments about Me and Shane and how I was shane's girlfriend... It was slightly annoying for some reason... Than my father carried on about the food being late and than my steak was overdone... It was a whole lot that went wrong... I told shane was glad he decided to come with me and he said he had a lot of fun... So that made me feel a bit better... I didn't realize til last night how much my father reminds me of a mob family... We are loud and rude and eat a lot... I was surpised...My dad seems to like shane, but for some reason I couldn't be cuddle wuddle with him... I don't think I'm very touchy feely person... Not around other people for the most part.... Shane did put his arm around me at dinner and that was about it.... He makes me feel different for some reason... Not like I have to make myself better or anything, but like he knows me and he knows I can't lie to him, because of the fact he knows me... I don't have to worry about my little flaws, because he already knows them... I guess that's what 3 years of knowing someone will do... Robby asked me a little bit ago weather I see myself staying with shane for any length of time and in all honesty I do.... I'm not saying I see wedding bells in our future or anything, but that we'll probably sticking around each other for a bit.... It different, when i was around Jamie he confused me, Fritz scared me and Stu I thought was different than most guys, but turned out he is pretty much just the same! I guess we'll see what happens for shannon and Shane in the future...
Ummm I guess I got to go to bed... work like anyways...
Shannon |
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| Rammed in the ass and bruised knees later |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|09:26 am] |
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| | love song-snake river conspiracy | ] |
Well driving home from white marsh on this past saturday I came upon the slowed traffic right before the dunalk/merritt blvd exit.... Stop and go traffic.... I stopped and the person behind decided not to.. So he rammed me in the ass causing me to hit the person in front of me.... He has a 94' dogde ram... He crushed my tail gate in a twisted the bed of my truck... He was a 17 yr old kid and his truck was pretty much fucked... His front end was completely caved in... He wasn't going to be able to drive that bad boy anywhere anymore... His airbags went off which means that he was going over 35 when he hit me... So that was my fun weekend... Oh and I had this really bad virus on friday which made me not keep anything down.... Glad I'm over that and now I have Shane's cold which isn't very major, but a clogged nose and that's about it... Ok I think I am done for now... I will have pics of my truck on myspace.... so it should be fun
Love
Shannon |
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[Jan. 1st, 2006|06:51 pm] |
too late!
You were suspected of witch craft and burnt to
death. You have a hard time trusting people or
making friends with them because people have a
hard time accepting you. You would like to be
accepted and appreciated.
How did you die in your past life? (for everyone)
brought to you by Quizilla
Hmm that's not surpising either |
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| to everyone who thinks they had a bad holiday |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|06:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tool-H | ] |
Well to start around chirstmas my mother flipped out and said shit that my father wished I died and that he was on the verge of suicide when I was bored... Really put me in the holiday mood and than on new years I babysat my little nephew...:-/ I'm such a fun person... but to be honest I'm not depressed or sad so go figure... Maybe I am a stronger person than I thought :-D
Well me and Shane we are still hanging out and having fun together.... We didn't get anything for one another for chirstmas, because he is aganist the commericalism of it as well... So I told him I would make him dinner one night.... We've watch the 40yr old virgin probably about 5 times in our fun times together... We both just really like the movie what can I say?!?!
Hmm what esle... I really like Shane and he really likes me so everything all good.... We went to a rap concert (which neither one of us really wanted to go to) It was called the Holladay jam and pretty much we just sat out in the hallway and talked... I don't think we even watch 10mins of it.... Where this really big fat guard came up to us(it was a girl I think) and started to hit on shane... And asked him random questions saying something like "Oh did your wife make you take the kids out" and he reply was "No I don't have a wife or kids I'm taking my neice out" and than she looked around him and at me...
Than asked" How old is your neice?"
He replied"She's 16"
She looked around him again "well isn't that nice what's your name?"
Than he hurried and said "This isn't my neice... This is a FRIEND from work"
I was slightly annoyed that someone butted into our business.... I'm still not letting him live it down that she was hitting on him...
And I snorted the other night around him and he isn't letting me live it down... SO we pretty much have the goods on one another....
I have a myspace now if anyone is bored and wants to look at it, but I think you all know that now.... :-/ Not that anyone reads my joural
Yup I think I'm going to go watch a movie now.... So I probably won't update until next week or something like that... Anyhow have fun reading my bullshit
Da Shannon
What's coming through is alive.
What's holding up is a mirror.
But what's singing songs is a snake
looking to turn my piss to wine.
They're both totally void of hate,
but killing me just the saaame {now?}.
The snake behind me hisses what my damage could have.
My blood before me begs me open up my heart again.
And I feel this coming over like a storm again {now?}.
Considerately.
Venomous voice,
tempts me,
drains me,
bleeds me,
leaves me cracked and empty.
Drags me down like some sweet gravityyyyyyyy.
The snake behind me hisses what my damage could have been.
My blood before me begs me open up my heart again.
(And I feel this coming over like a storm again {now?}
I am too, connected to you
to slip away,
to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
touching me,
changing me,
and (considerately killing me.)
Without the skin here,
beneath the storm,
under these tears now,
the walls came down.
As the snake is drowned
and as I look in his eyes,
my fear begins to fade
recalling all of the times.
I could have cried then.
I should have cried then.
And as the walls come down
and as I look in your eyes
my fear begins to fade
recalling all of the times
I have died,
and will die.
It's all right.
(I don't mind.)
I dont' minnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd!
I am too connected to you
to slip away,
to fade away.
Days away I still feel you
touching me,
changing me,
and (considerately killing me.) |
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